Don't freak out, it's an analogy

I have a malignant tumor*.

Its name is "wasting time" and it's in the "selfish and lazy" category of malignant growths.

The worst part about it is that if I hack it out, it just grows back. Sometimes in the same place and same form, other times in a different place and form.

I can't tell you how many times I've tried to hack it out, only to see it growing back, sometimes almost immediately. Sometimes it even grows bigger than ever.

I've tried to hack it out in my own power. I've tried to sit back and pray for healing. I've tried to hack it out while praying for healing and strength to do the task.

So far it's still there, growing.

I'm trying that third approach again today. I've chopped myself off from my message boards, even though I'd already pared down to just a few small ones, I've been long gone from the BIG one that used to take all my time. I'm going to chop off a lot of my blog reading list. I'm going to chop away at the TIMES I can use the computer. again. Trying to stay off while the kids are awake.

I'm going to check my email now and then during the day, and I'll still try to get blog entries in, and friends' blogs visited, in the time after kids are in bed. So if I don't visit your blog as often, please understand. And if you miss me, drop me an email. I'm going to try to be a better reply-er. I've been bad lately. I'm sorry. I have intermittent trouble with bounces (sometimes that I don't even know about) but hopefully I'll find out if you're bouncing and get things straightened out.

To be honest I don't feel very hopeful at winning this battle. Seems like it's a pretty virulent malignancy. I know there can be healing in the Lord, that He's the great physician ... but it's hard to be hopeful when I've tried, and tried, and tried, and am still facing the same old prognosis. But I can't just let it grow, either.

So ... in case you're skimming and freaking out, I'll reiterate. It's just an analogy for the ugly truth that is my life.

*credit where credit is due ~ this analogy is a spin-off from Kelly's comments in this previous post.

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unrelated note ~ come do a little mini Bible study with me:

Is "balance" a Biblical concept? Should we seek balance in our lives? If so, where do you find that in the Bible, and what would you be balancing?

The original specific context of this question was: should we have a "balance" of being guided by the facts of doctrine vs. our emotions/feelings (the Holy Spirit) -- so specifically that, but I'm expanding the question to include the whole concept of "balance"

Please do not just state your thoughts, but back your position up with Scripture. All Scripturally backed opinions are welcome. :)