It's Like Star Trek, only Not ...

remember that Star Trek where there was the negotiator guy and he did the thing where he transferred all the negative emotions to his wife, and that made her get all old and dying, but it enabled him to be all pleasant and helpful? And then something like his wife died so he had to transfer his emotions somewhere else, so he transferred them to troi, and she was getting all old and mean and stuff ...

so it turns out I've had something similar but different going on, all these years, where I've transferred my frustration to the poor cat, griping about her and stuff, and that's enabled me to be all pleasant and helpful as a mom ... but now it turns out the very old cat is not doing so well, and I can't really be mean about a cat who is in failing elderly cat health, 'cause that would be mean, so I can't transfer my negative mom emotions to her, so yesterday I was a very crabby mom.

But then the negative emotions made the dude's wife get old, and maybe it's because I was transferring negative emotions that the cat got old, and if I don't transfer them to her she'll get young again, 'cause Troi did, you know, and then the cat will get better, and then I'll transfer them to her again, and it will become a weird cycle, back and forth?

hm. I thought this would be a light way to say the cat is not doing well and it's awkward and sad, but now that I've made this weird Star Trek analogy it's ... well ... just weird and awkward and sad. We're doing our best to show love and take care of her, while keeping a practical eye on what seems to be the coming end ... Maybe I'll just trail off.