Fit is Hard

you know that song about Major Tom and he just goes off into space ... do you ever feel like that? No? Okay, moving on then.

Getting Fit is hard.

I got a new exercise video and the person was talking about helping me become an athlete. I don't want to become an athlete. At this point I don't see how that could ever appeal to me. I've always been very unathletic. But I do want to be fit.

You would think switching to eating healthy and getting in a regular exercise habit would pay off quickly. And maybe it does in some invisible way. But you know, most of the time it's just hard. Pressing on, seeing slow changes, hitting plateaus. Sometimes it seems like not making progress at all.

I thought I was over the hump of healthy eating, settled into my groove, but it's hard for me to stay in my groove. I keep bumping up out of it, trying to get down into it again, finding it a rough and wobbly ride.

And some days when I look at the results in the mirror of all the extra walking and the wobbling and trying to press on eating healthy, it doesn't look much different than before, eating junk and not really trying. I know it IS better, but ...

It's hard to persevere.